We sat down the other night to discuss what we could do together...hobbies. It was tricky because it's what I've been struggling with the last little while. What to do to keep me (and James) entertained. Not just entertained but progressing and doing something that I like and that is engaging. We came up with things together. We'll do some outside things depending on weather (hikes, skiing when we we're in Utah maybe even scuba diving one day), art history/visiting art museums with a purpose (researching the artists), learning a language and researching different countries and then exploring their culture. That's stuff that we can do together but what do I do for myself?

I think I'm just hesitant to find something because I don't know what my life will be like when the baby comes. My parents are around to help but they work so how can I do something weekly like a class with a new baby? I have found it's really hard to get up in the morning when I don't have anything planned. When I have no obligations what's the point of getting up and getting ready or doing something when I have nothing to do, no errands to run?

I had a bit of a revelation just now. I think I might maybe 6 months from now, sign up for the Masters Swimming. There's one team at CSU East Bay and I think one of the coaches used to coach me at CVHS. I could start that at the beginning of the year and stay in shape and do something that I really like. Practices are early in the morning so Mom could come and watch Gwen as I go off for practice and James heads off for work. Now I just have to remember that this is something that I would like to do. I think it would be good because it's structured practice and it seems like there are some meets which would be fun. I think James knows that I love to swim and it's something I enjoy but he's never seen me swim, practice or meet. I think it would surprise him. I've always talked about joining and been a bit afraid because I'm "not in shape" like I used to be so I'd go to the pool and "swim" but never progress but practicing with a group would be fun.

I guess the question that still remains: what to do in the mean time?